Indecisive Omission

You've cleaned the kitchen, picked up a couple bottles of red, and you're ready to take your second shower for the day when the phone rings. Damn she's beautiful. You take the call. I mean why wouldn't you considering you're excited to spend a quaint evening together playin' old couple on the couch, listening to nineties alternative, and sharing all of life's ups and downs for the week. You answer, maybe a little too excited, when the conversation goes south... "We can't do this anymore, you don't know what you want, and I'm seeing someone else."

It really sucks when your looking forward to something that ends up not taking place. The irony behind this particular situation was that I was never really sure if it was a relationship I truly wanted. This was the woman who you enjoy good conversation and totally connect with but for some reason you can't pull through and commit. Being dumped by your own indecisive omission is a strange one 'cause really it’s your own fault. You’re upset because you wanted to still "have a thing" but you omit the fact that you even have a relationship.  And the smart women or men who reads these warning signs are the ones who cut off the alleged relationship and move on. Thus, leaving us to wallow in self-pity and drown our sorrows ‘cause ultimately we lost even though we caused the inevitable.

If you personally find yourself in one these relationships it’s a good idea to move on or at least know not to expect a future with this indecisive individual. Love isn’t always easy but it should be easy to love. Of course there is also the possibility that this particular person simply needs a cattle prod poked in the ass to get them to see the light. Don’t hold your breath though. For whatever reason there is a mental roadblock keeping the relationship from moving forward.

I hang up the phone, crawl in the shower and lay on the floor. The warm water blinds me as it splashes into my face. I close my eyes as they swell a little from fighting the self-induced pain and then I see her face. She smiles at me, white teeth radiant, face illuminated by nothing but the flickering of candle light, and think to myself, “You’re a fucking idiot.”    

 

Comments

[Chad]

This is a frequent occurrence in my life:
"It really sucks when your looking forward to something that ends up not taking place."

[A]

The timing of this article was very ironic for me and I enjoyed it.